In the Belly of Her Ghost : A Memoir (Larb True Stories)

Colin Dayan has one of the most original minds in America and also one of the fiercest. Here for the first time she turns her rigorous intellect toward her own life, onto her vexed relationship with her mother and subsequent suffering -- and she does so with her usual uncompromising clarity. It's rare for such a tormented work to be so masterful. In the Belly of her Ghost is not exactly an easy read, but it's also very hard to put down. -Madison Smartt Bell Colin Dayan's searing personal narrative is as much a Southern Gothic story as a haunting family portrait. A tale of love and resentment, In the Belly of Her Ghost is a memoir and meditation on the author's dead mother -- a Haitian woman attempting to assimilate into white Southern belle high society during the Civil Rights era. Dayan's mother grows austere with her newfound glamour and dismissive of her daughter, whose darker skin foments a loving connection with Lucille, her African American nanny. Capturing the bitter struggle of mother and daughter -- from her childhood unto death and beyond into the disconcerting present--In the Belly of Her Ghost is a lyrical journey through memory and loss. Dayan reflects on her complicated origins as she grows into a woman, uncertain if she's "black" or "white"; we see a gritty, nuanced view of the Jim Crow South. A literary ghost story, In the Belly of Her Ghost grapples with our complicated notions of race, identity, and femininity. In times such as ours, and the times from which they spawned, ages of violence against all forms of "other" -- genders, bodies, skins, ideas -- how can we lay to rest the ghosts that haunt us, and invite to the table those that help us live? Writing from the headlands far into the interior, threading the personal with the public, an elegy with a covert manifesto of hope, Colin Dayan understands what it is to be haunted: by history, by race, by family, by what presses on the definitions of one's life. In pages at once strikingly evocative, al